The greatest test of courage on earth is to bear defeat without losing heart.

Robert Ingersoll

Selling a Home

My grandma always told me that marriage was 70/30 or 80/20. All the time though?

What happens from that 3 year mark to the 10 year mark? At first its always share and share, happy,happy. Now its just-- everything that doesnt have to do with my outside job is youre responsibility. He would never say that but oh actions speak louder than words.

So if youre reading this, thanks for taking out the girls for a few hours every week. And I want to be the 30 part for awhile--months maybe years.

Leaps

When? When do you decide to take that leap? The big leap, the one you do in youre thirties. The "I am going to make the next thirty years better, more adventuresome leap?" How do you do it? I can only dream of it... I cannot fathom how to do it without letting go of the kids and husband and my current life. I dream of colors and shapes wrapping around one another. I cannot figure out how to put myself first without hurting so many others. Please blend, Please come together. Please,oh please let it happen.

Yeah for summer

The last few days have been more productive than I ever thought they would or could be. This is one of the items that I just finished. Isabella loves it and I found the pattern at jcarolinecreative.com.

Adventure

I need some girlfriends who are adventurous and a little crazy. I have so many ideas racing through my head but cannot seem to pull them all together. I want a chair covered in fake animal fabric, bright yellow pillows on my couches, modern lights above my bar. Never mind that my house is done in a strict traditional overtone. These items would never work unless I completely overhauled everything we have. This is where the crazy girlfriends would come in--pushing me to do it even though it would never work. I am yearning for fresh and vibrant. Metal mobiles hanging from the ceiling, no more curtains weighing down the walls and windows. I miss having friends that push and encourage you into youre dream land. They certainly do not live in my suburbia land but I will keep my out for them.

Ranjinis work

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Originally uploaded by ranjini.

She has expressed how I feel inside. What an artist.

Decisions

How is it I cannot seem to make a right decision? Big and little, on down the road I found out I should have made a different choice. Life is about option and I have the wrong set cooking in my head:)  My family always joked about it being a big billboard sign in front of you screaming to not make that choice and you went ahead and did it any way.  From planting cucumbers-way to many, to selling a house to soon I am paving that rocky path.
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