Memorial Day

Every year for the last 4 years in Colorado Springs we have held a BBQ, today is no different. The only difference is we are having cancellations from families at the last minute. What to do? Tons of food and prep work....already done in anticipation of a large crowd.  What am I doing about it? Vodka. Vodka in my Arnold Palmer's.
I am stressed out and cant cope.
Tomorrow. I have a teeth cleaning scheduled and a maybe root canal. Friday she wasn't sure if it was a root canal procedure or a filling that needed to be done. Looks close to the nerve she said as she showed me the x-ray. To me it did not. But alas I am not the Doc. They couldn't schedule for the maybe root canal until the 4th of June, however they could do a cleaning on the 28th. after much bitching they said maybe they could do the root canal/filling after the cleaning. Did I mention this is a new Dentist. Did I mention we are an Active Duty military family that is scheduled to PCS in a month. That my husband just received his orders last Tuesday? That they were messed up as usual. That Monterey housing is blique at best with some of the worst schools in the nation?  $2900 a month for 1800 sq.ft.? First, last month + deposit. The Air Force does not pay for move in amounts...and our taxes are not back yet. $9000 to just move in to a place, when we find one. I am cleaning and getting rid of stuff--been doing this for awhile. The moving survey team should be here today or tomorrow.
I am however thankful for friends who are going to be taking care of the girls this week. The ones who are catching my every misstep. I suck at good-byes, I cry alot. 12 years and numerous moves later it has not gotten any easier....I will keep going and try not to worry about all the household items that will be broken,lost or stolen by our excellent movers and which we will be paid 40% on the dollar to replace.  I will not worry about our current landlord giving us our deposit back in a timely manner. I will not worry that one of our cars may or may not make it to CA. I will breathe. I will just keep saying that as I enjoy my drink of the day.